The professional or left brain side of me is analytical, practical and has the ability to create systems to support business management. In fact this part of me requires methodical systems in order to function in this environment. This part of me likes rules and structure and clear lanes for people to work within to provide guidance and efficiency. When those are missing it is disorienting and frustrating.
This side of me was dominant for many years and didn't even know there was an entirely different part of me screaming to get out.
I just kept thinking there was something wrong with me, I couldn't maintain this structure for any length of time, I would create the perfect plan and system to "get it right" this time and would eventually loose momentum and fall back into what I thought were bad habits. It turns out those "bad" habits were just the other part of me trying to push through and let me know there were other ways of doing things and different ways to see the world.
The consequences to pushing that part of me away was depression, anxiety and an overall feeling of being trapped in my life. When I began to discover this other side, it took over for awhile and wanted to completely abandon my more practical self entirely. This new free spirit had unleashed and had enough of being suppressed and needed to run wild and free. We now we have this mutual respect for each other and know that we are much better together.
The resume you see here showcases the integrated version of me which has created a much more balanced richer life experience.
This side of me was dominant for many years and didn't even know there was an entirely different part of me screaming to get out.
I just kept thinking there was something wrong with me, I couldn't maintain this structure for any length of time, I would create the perfect plan and system to "get it right" this time and would eventually loose momentum and fall back into what I thought were bad habits. It turns out those "bad" habits were just the other part of me trying to push through and let me know there were other ways of doing things and different ways to see the world.
The consequences to pushing that part of me away was depression, anxiety and an overall feeling of being trapped in my life. When I began to discover this other side, it took over for awhile and wanted to completely abandon my more practical self entirely. This new free spirit had unleashed and had enough of being suppressed and needed to run wild and free. We now we have this mutual respect for each other and know that we are much better together.
The resume you see here showcases the integrated version of me which has created a much more balanced richer life experience.